I feel like I’m forever in limbo with all my unavailable boys.
For the most part, I’ve put myself in check with the guy from Texas. I still like him, and we still talk regularly, but I was getting too far into it. And I got butt hurt. And that’s not a good look for me (or anyone for that matter). Sometimes I fall back into it, he’s sweet, and kind, and that fucking southern charm gets me every time. But I quickly pull my head out of my ass and get it together.
So, to the more recent guy, who I’ve done the past few posts about: he’s great. And I feel like I’m putting myself in the exact same situation. He’s not available (apparently).
Anyway, him and I legitimately talk all day. Every day. And I was chatting with one of my girlfriends about him and his (fake) girlfriend and she told me how it is.
She doesn’t think that he has a girlfriend. Based off the fact that we talk all the time. And I made the argument that he’s long distant. So she probably doesn’t even know about me. Which is fine since we’re just friends, right? Anyway, she said that no guy, in his right mind, would think it’s okay to talk to another girl as often as we do. And not that our conversations are overly sexual, but they do have clear and obvious flirtation in it.
So, I’ve been trying to get more details about the girl. But he’s fairly private, however a bit less with me now. But I can’t just start asking questions about her, because that’s weird. He hadn’t talked about her or where she lives since early August. The other night he was talking about how he’s supporting about 4 different areas with work right now, and I told him he deserves a vacation, and he said he was doing a staycation (lame) and I told him he was due for a trip to where she lives, and he said he was going. So I really don’t know. I thought maybe they broke up because a few weeks back he was super short and stressed and less chatty, and I thought maybe that was why, but apparently not.
So dilemma, first, I’m still a bad person for being into someone who has someone else. Secondly, maybe he’s a bad person for talking to me and having this weird relationship we have while he’s in an actual relationship. Or we’re both bad people but like … three lefts make a right, right?